This whole week has been really horrible tiring and stressful.I don't mean that usual workload stress kinda thing. It is just this whole different thing. I'm so sick and tired of going to school every morning knowing that the whole day will be about this whole crap. I just feel like writing this whole incident down here but i can't. But seriously if it is you why can't you just admit?! Don't you know this is getting nowhere? Well I know if it is not you then it'll have been unfair to you. BUT this whole incident just totally seems like you. I know I shouldn't just be like making assumptions without evidence. But you know something I'm so sick of going to school everyday being in the middle of you two and just i dont know whether so but deceiving myself that there is just that little hope that you didnt do it.What's more, how do you explain all those other crap about you and your hypocriteness and how you backstab your friends? And that bad past of yours. When I ask you about it you come up with this story I'm sorry to say but it just sounds so FAKE. I really wonder how can I go to school every morning talk, laugh, shout and have fun with you like usual when deep inside I'm thinking whether I can actually trust this person I'm looking at? Why make things so difficult? WHY BREAK PEOPLE FRIENDSHIPS UP? WHY BETRAY YOUR OWN FRIEND WHO TRUSTED YOU SO MUCH?WHY? ARE YOU JUST SIMPLY AN INHUMAN WITH NO FEELINGS FOR ANYONE BUT YOURSELF? I'm also so afraid for that person who trusts you the most and so far nothing has happen to her. What if one day like how you did you were to backstab her? Don't you think you are being too cruel. I really don't know whether I can go to school tomorrow acting like how I always do and at the same time think about whether I can trust you. I have no idea at all what to do. I'm at a loss.



Today is the day You have made
I will rejoice and be glad in it
And I won`t worry about tomorrow
I`m trusting in what You say
Today is the day


It is really hard not to worry about tomorrow.It is even harder to trust that everything will go well in Your hands. But I know no matter how hard I will be glad in everyday you made and I just know that You are always watching over me. Even as I type this to actually just reassure myself, I can feel your calmness and your peace with me. I Love You Lord.:)
Feel much better.:)Please bring me through tomorrow Lord:)