In every season you are still god

Friday, July 31, 2009 / 5:15 AM

SO GLAD GOD BROUGHT ME THROUGH THIS WEEK:)The second half of this week was practically DISGUSTING. NDP rehersal on wed: ANNOYING except for the singing part which I started going high. The rest of the day felt sick on and off.And went for dental to put on my bottom braces..and couldnt properly for dinner.In the end my parents bought mian sian and I ended up eating at liike 9plus. Thurs: Felt sick on and off AGAIN. I think I have SERIOUS problem. I FEEL SICK ON AND OFF. Like who on the earth does?! Its a horrible feeling. It is like mood swings just that it isnt the nood it is the virus crap. Anw, band sucked totally on thurs too. Forgot to bring my file and had to play with my SUPER CRAZILY PAIN TEETH. I was dying. My teeth hurt like nuts. URGHH. Today: Was not that bad...asked Ms Sia during math to give us remedial. said today actually have but didnt asked us no offence to anyone. Anw, Tiffany asked if could give two so we dicussed and decided on wed. Yes while we four plus her was talking the rest of the class just listened to us hahaha. anw, then we decided not to go today cos she is teaching exact same thing and stuff. and so on wed we'll just tell her what we dont know and she'll help:) YAY! HAHA! Finally I found assistance to my HORRIBLE ALGEBRA.
This is the FIRST FRIDAY I didnt come home and sleep or slack the whole day!:) I actually started work right after I bathed!:)
So tomorrow...band then....CHURCH!!!!!:):):) hahaha! yay! Ok band wont be as bad as thurs i think i hope. Cos it is not a normal TIRING school day which I just want to go home.Anw, for JBF we have to choose 3 out of 4 pieces.I'm ok with all actually. Ok not Big Fun..but too bad mk says it is a tradition whatever crap. So church! yes yes Im so happy. I miss my church frens and the atmosphere and everything!
Yes Im once again quite pleased with myself for being able to control myself and to be serious and start studying for EOY.:)
Oh wells!Im really looking forward to tomorrow!:)(ok not the waking up part hehe..)

Monday, July 27, 2009 / 1:40 AM

Blogger finally fixed itself. It was spoiled the past few days so didnt get to blogged. Oh just realised it still is just that it is only the font and colour now. ANW, Sat turned out to be soo much better than expected. Though I was still sad at the fact that I didnt get to go to church, At least the enjoyable sat with the band people made up for it. Really had GREAT FUN during the 110th except for the first few hours.Lots of Laughter. haha.
Sunday was really horrible though. Woke up with a slight headache and was sneezing the whole day. YES THE WHOLE DAY. Couldnt even concentrate on my homework, and that day obviously turned out really unproductive of course. Yes and then to make things worse like it wasnt bad enough a chameleon crawled up my leg during dinner which made me scream like some weirdo. And the rest of the dinner was too paranoid and pissed to savour my long craved beef udon. And some people just couldnt understand how bad a mood you can be in when you are sick and just got attacked by a disgusting chameleon.

Today was pretty awesome I had to admit. REALLY GREAT for a school day esp a Monday. let me tell you how great it was.:) MA: Ok went through test paper which was not really satisfying(the marks i mean). YES MY ALGEBRA. I should totally do more algebra.Honestly it sucks. But of coursse since Math is still my favourite subject, I shall make myself LOVE algebra before I start hating math. Yes that is how much I love math kay. It is also one of the only subjects I can still manage to do well in sec school so I better like totally buck up. Yes Ge: Manage to complete more of all those 67 questions Mr Teo gave.However Im still way behing time. I like silent time when you just do your work quietly. I really like that time. PEACE:) yes. Mt: nothing interesting as usual. Langarts: Ms sharon didnt come and Ms song relieved. WE WATCH HOUSSE!!!!:):) OH MY GOSH SO AWESOME RIGHT??? I KNOW!HAHAS!:) sorry I really love that show. A doctor show. yeah. This episode was pretty scary though. oh wells. CS:which alsoo means super slack lesson plus air-con!hahas:) yeah. AND TO ADD ON TO HOW AWESOME IT IS TODAY, I DIDNT SLEEP WHEN I GOT HOME!:) I DID MY HOMEWORK, STILL DOING. HAHAS:) The only reason why Im blogging now is bcos I dont want to come up on to the com later and waste 2hours. But instead Ive decided to do my work. haha yes as you can tell Im in a really GOOD mood today hahas. YES AND IM PRETTY CERTAIN I WONT FALL ASLEEP UNTIL AT NIGHT SO IT IS A REALY GOOD THING.YES TO ADD ON TO MY HAPPINESS, my mother didnt scold me for my math test. I thought I was totally going to die this time. Surprisingly she didnt scold. Ok yes I know the only reason was bcos she saw the well done chop on the cover. HEY HEY HEY DONT MISTAKEN. It was NOT good at all seriously. I guess my teacher was just being nice or at least I didnt failed. hahas. Yes! Oh yeah of course Ive also decided to start studying for EOY. There;s only 2months more. And I really want to do well considering the fact that I didnt do well for ca1 and I dont think Ill do well for ca2. So I really need to do WELL for EOY. YES I FIND STUDYING QUITE FUN ACTUALLY. Ok Im weird again. Ok when you study when you feel like doing so it is fun and not as bad as everyone thinks. But if you are under pressure studying for an upcoming test, it can be pretty horrible. YEAH SO ALL THE MORE I SHOULD START STUDYING NOW SO I WONT BE SO STRESS FOR EOY WHEN THERE IS ONLY FEW WEEKS LEFT RIGHTS? YEAH! OK. IM OFF TO DO MY WORK PLUS STUDY NOW:)
JIA YOU CHERYL!:) YOU CAN DO IT!:)

Tuesday, July 21, 2009 / 6:11 AM

Ahh!!!Today was normal. School I meant. Normal rountine and stuff. Except for band. But it was totally disgusting and annoying. I mean the whole time I was wishing for it to be over. I mean like Im totally suppose to me at home on a tues lah. Sectionals was yucky and sucky. I played so horribly. I mean Ive never really played up to standard before ever since I changed to tenor. I have no idea why they choose me for the 110th crap. Maybe I should try out that big air plan. urggh. Still I rather go to church!!! Urghh! Oh wells. I really hate it. And whats more... 12pm all the way to 10.30pm? I mean seriously...do they think we are robots or something. Maybe I should just pull out. But if I want to pull out I should pull out quickly. Anyways I dont make a difference since I play so yuckily. Urgghh!!!Should I pull out??!! Yes and I got shocked by my father when he came and fetch me! and later my sis and him were laughing at me:( tsk. Anw, sorry Kai Jun, Jaime and Yanny!haha!

Urghh Ok I have a headache and stomachache. Ouch! I think stomachache from what I ate just now. SIGH. I think I got food poisoning or something.:(( Oh wells. Tomorrow is DISGUSTING. There's dental...another reason why I should pull out. Sigh. Ill see how bad my conddition is first tomorrow. HAHA. But I seriously want to go church!!!:) But I have reasons why I should perform for 110th also. Oh wells I dont know!! I'll decided tomorrow!:) hehe!

HAHA!I just talked to CHAR-MELLE!:):) HAHA AND IM STILL TALKING!:) MSN-ING! haha!She totally make me go high just now!Shes shifting! YAY!!!HAHA!Now I can go to her house! with more convenience of course haha! COS HER NEW HOUSE IS SO NEAR MINE!!!:):) hahah!yay! YAY! Yeah I was so excited!YAY OK IM SO HAPPY! HAHA! Im going to her house warming!:) yay!yay CHARMAINE!HAHAHAH!YAY!:) HAHA! Shes so funny and the word I shall not use on her!:) hahaha!Ok I shall not say what happen!:) Anw, I hope I'll be in the same class as her next year! hahaha!:)

Hope tomorrow will pass really really QUICKLY! urggh! I want time to pass as fast as possible tomorrow!!!!:))))

Monday, July 20, 2009 / 6:08 AM

Urgghh today was horrible:(:( However it was definitely better than last week.hehe.Ok yes yes Im still feeling extremely happy.This is the happiest I've felt so far this whole year.Well it is just this happiness knowing there's Hope. And that this is a beginning of a new chapter in my life.
So yes back to today.I totally died for ting xie.Honestly suddenly all those word I remembered just disappeared from my head.Like memory loss.Yeah so I'm like totally going to flunk this round's ting xie.Haha goodness gracious I have to say at least it wasnt that bad like Sarah who wrote 3 words only for the last poem!hahas!Sarah! Ok yes I got my first booking today. First ever one from primary school until now. I was hoping to keep a clean record...oh wells I guess it happens. However my friend said I shouldnt have gotten booked....ok whatever for some reason I dont feel sad or angry or anything about it at all hahaha!In fact I actually thank the prefect like twice or thrice. Sorry Jan!Yeah I got scolded by her for thanking the prefect.hehe. She was like she booked you kay, you should be angry with her and not thanking her for helping you hold your stuff. haha.well she was doing her job. ok this is really weird cos after that I kept seeing her the rest of the day. Honestly, so freaky! I bet she must have been freaked out too. I mean like you book this person and then for the rest of the day you see her....it is like you did smth wrong and a ghost haunting you...ok ok ignore my crap hahah. Ok the rest of the day...nothing much to talk about since it was pretty boring. Oh except for me starting to go high during chem and math.Ms Sia lost my graded assignment!And I have to redo.And I went to find her after school but couldnt find her so I gave up and went home so I shall get it tmr:)
Blah blah. ok tmr, there's math test...yucks. Im like totally going to flunk it. yes. Ok fine maybe I wont or at least Im hoping I wont...cos I studied!:) yes yes. Its algebra kay.Like honestly I'm going to go crazy figuring out whether I should cancel or not. Honestly. The past 2 pop quizes I spent like a really long time figuring out whether to cancel or not. And of course I flunk them both:( urggh those were the first time I flunk pop quizes...really sucky right. i know. thats why I asked ms sia to give more pop quizes:) so that I can get 3 good ones to be counted in my ca2:) Ok come to think Im really scared for test. Havent been doing well for math tests. sigh I need to do well to do well for my ca2. Yes yes I seriously want to do well for my ca2 kay. like seriously I'll go crazy if I dont do well.I went crazy for ca1 already. But I gave it a pass since it was first ca in sec school.Anw, I just really hope I do well.:)
okok. Tmr there's history mass remedial.hahah.And then band.yucks. I dont wanna stay back until 6++. like seriously.:(urgghh!so gross!:(:( I dont want band tmr. sigh. cant do anything.
Oh yes the braces thingy.Urgghhh!I might have to pull out of 110th.I dont really mind actually. Just that I dont want to look at some people's pissed off look. And I want cca points. Oh wells, Im praying for the best.hehe:)

Sunday, July 19, 2009 / 1:20 AM

Yeah, really emotional blog post just now, BUT need not worry because now it is gonna be a really happy and relieving post. haha. And of course it is about ytd. Ytd was really really awesome!

Started off with band, yeah had to as usual force myself out of the bed again hahas. After warming up, we juniors had seperate sectionals, brass, perc., woodwinds and then back together again in the AVA room. We watched some videos. But I'm gonna talk about the MJ one only. Goodness, I couldnt stand it, seriously it gave me shivers. I AM SO SORRY CLARE AND ALL THE OTHER MJ LOVERS. But seriously I had a hard time watching it. I have to admit his moonwalk was pretty cool though. Im not going to mention the really sick part since the highlight of this post is nothing to do with that and Im not gonna spoil the moods haha.

So yeah, after band I went to church.:) And again I got abandoned by my dearest Erin. Thanks alot huh. Yeah then I tried convincing Shu Qing to go with me to Serene Centre. Of course it didnt work haha since she was at her bus stop already. Sorry Shu Qing for screaming into the phone like some mad girl.:( Phew there were no one around while walking to my bus stop. Of course when I reached I had to lower my voice haha. SORRY ONCE AGAIN SHU QING.

So Sis Hannah joined our buzz group and will be going back in about 2half months and we will spliting into 2 groups for discussion from now till then and I'm in her group. Looking forward to the next 2half months and getting to know her more.:) Yeah so we learned aobut self-worth and stuff. Well I learned and decided during discussion from Sis Hannah that sometimes we dont need to care about what other people say. As long as we are right and that is our stand on that certain subject that is all that matters, and we do not need to be effected by what people think about that subject. Yeah so that thing about friendship during CE, I've decided that I shouldnt care about what people think about it. Oh wells.

Learned about prayer during service. I kept hesitating during altar call even though I knew God was calling me. I didn't dare to stand up, I kept thinking that I couldn't do it and I didnt want to make empty promises. I didnt have the courage to stand up. At that point in time Sis Gwen was counting down and was at 5secs. Just then, God reminded me of what He spoke to me about a few weeks ago. Then I stood up and decided to stop hesitating. It was 3 secs then. When I went up, for some reason I do not know why at all, I was trembling like seriously trembling. My hands were all cold and I was shivering. Dont ask me what happen.Then I started pouring out. And I couldnt stop. Trembling while crying, it was pretty bad, I couldn't even sing. Then, God spoke to me like He did previously during worship. This time He told me to be courageous and stop hesitating anymore. Then, He once again reminded me what He spoke to me during worship. To have courage and not to worry so much for He will take care of me and every single thing that happens. Yeah, then after altar call I turned back and saw my sis. Yeah I was still crying, hugged my sis, still couldnt stop crying. AND goodness me until now I still dont know why I cried. I guess it was God touching me. Well, yeah she comforted me and all. Then I told her that I wanted to talk to Sis Jessie about that thing I've been thinking the whole past week.

Ok so went up, my sis told her I wanted to talk to her when I thought she was helping me tell her the thing already lah. tsk. Anyways so I talked to her and in the end I still told her what I thought my sis already told her since she asked if I had anything to tell her while questioning me. That was when I realised my sis didnt tell her yet.tsk. haha. So she asked me some questions, got my number and said she'll call me. She's really nice haha not how she thought i thought that she was scary haha. But well I still cant help being scared. And now when I'm writing this I'm still scared. Very scared. Anyways, IM SO GLAD I finally tell her and I wont have a chance to change my mind anymore:). Well I know I can back out but Im NOT going to. I promise. If this is where God has called me to I will go and gladly serve Him. So well, after that went for dinner with family to celebrate my bro's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRO!!!:) It was great haha. We went high(the children i meant) during dinner and started talking about ahem. I shall not say it in here haha. Anyways, Im so sad today is a Sunday. Im really dreading tomorrow. sigh. I know I've already decided about it. But still can't help being scared. And not knowing how this whole week in school is going to be. Oh wells, however scared I am, I AM TOO HAPPY RIGHT NOW!:) HAHA! Oh and my new favourite word is HOPE. YES. There is always HOPE as long as you have God.YAY!Haha!Im really happy now. and really relieved too. Wow, this is a really long post sorry but alot of things happened ytd. haha. oh yeah and now for the thanking time.:) I really want to thank my sis for helping me and ting yan for encouraging me and sis em for reassuring me.:)

well, I hope tomorrow and the whole week will go on smoothly.Especially in school. Sigh I'm not going to church this week cos of 110th annivesary which means I dont have church to look forward too this week!:( never mind, I can look forward to performing for the first time if that helps haha!And God will bring me through this whole week!:)

Torture

/ 12:58 AM

For the past whole week, school has totally been nothing but torturous. Every single day I was thinking and thinking about that one thing I spoke to Sis Em about. After talking to Sis Em, I really was confident, super confident in fact. But just during service I started changing my mind and throughout that whole week I was fighting to stand strong and stop changing my mind. Honestly that one week was really horrible, sleepless nights, inability to concentrate during lessons even.

On Friday, gosh school started off really horribly, of course with someone's annoying crappy speech on us taking advantage of her kindness, like SERIOUSLY.Playing with her pen to create a dramatic effect. Goodness! Was really relieved when it was over haha! On the whole that day was not as bad as the rest, considering the fact that it was a FRIDAY!:) hahas! Well CE was kinda horrible...maybe. I dont know. I really wonder why those people are like that. They really dont see the importance of friendship. AND IM NOT TRYING TO BE GOODIE HERE. Im serious. Oh wells I guess like what ms sharon said, everyone will start understanding it when they are older...only that I realised it now already. If you guys see this, I'm sorry but that is just my stand on this topic. Anyways, when that day was over, I was simply REJOICING! haha! I went straight home glad that that week was FINALLY OVER! YES! haha! For that moment I forgot about that thing. And of course at night I was thinking about it again. Oh wells.

HEELO!:)

/ 12:23 AM

Hello Everybody! This is my first post!Really wanted a blog a long time ago but was too lazy haha. I really wanna thank CEEKAY for helping me edit the whole blogskin! Thanks BALA!:) :)Ok, I just realised that I have to blog in proper English and not in SMS language haha!Alright, I'll start really really blogging in the next post after I finish more of my Math work! :)