Sunday, July 19, 2009 / 1:20 AM
Yeah, really emotional blog post just now, BUT need not worry because now it is gonna be a really happy and relieving post. haha. And of course it is about ytd. Ytd was really really awesome!
Started off with band, yeah had to as usual force myself out of the bed again hahas. After warming up, we juniors had seperate sectionals, brass, perc., woodwinds and then back together again in the AVA room. We watched some videos. But I'm gonna talk about the MJ one only. Goodness, I couldnt stand it, seriously it gave me shivers. I AM SO SORRY CLARE AND ALL THE OTHER MJ LOVERS. But seriously I had a hard time watching it. I have to admit his moonwalk was pretty cool though. Im not going to mention the really sick part since the highlight of this post is nothing to do with that and Im not gonna spoil the moods haha.
So yeah, after band I went to church.:) And again I got abandoned by my dearest Erin. Thanks alot huh. Yeah then I tried convincing Shu Qing to go with me to Serene Centre. Of course it didnt work haha since she was at her bus stop already. Sorry Shu Qing for screaming into the phone like some mad girl.:( Phew there were no one around while walking to my bus stop. Of course when I reached I had to lower my voice haha. SORRY ONCE AGAIN SHU QING.
So Sis Hannah joined our buzz group and will be going back in about 2half months and we will spliting into 2 groups for discussion from now till then and I'm in her group. Looking forward to the next 2half months and getting to know her more.:) Yeah so we learned aobut self-worth and stuff. Well I learned and decided during discussion from Sis Hannah that sometimes we dont need to care about what other people say. As long as we are right and that is our stand on that certain subject that is all that matters, and we do not need to be effected by what people think about that subject. Yeah so that thing about friendship during CE, I've decided that I shouldnt care about what people think about it. Oh wells.
Learned about prayer during service. I kept hesitating during altar call even though I knew God was calling me. I didn't dare to stand up, I kept thinking that I couldn't do it and I didnt want to make empty promises. I didnt have the courage to stand up. At that point in time Sis Gwen was counting down and was at 5secs. Just then, God reminded me of what He spoke to me about a few weeks ago. Then I stood up and decided to stop hesitating. It was 3 secs then. When I went up, for some reason I do not know why at all, I was trembling like seriously trembling. My hands were all cold and I was shivering. Dont ask me what happen.Then I started pouring out. And I couldnt stop. Trembling while crying, it was pretty bad, I couldn't even sing. Then, God spoke to me like He did previously during worship. This time He told me to be courageous and stop hesitating anymore. Then, He once again reminded me what He spoke to me during worship. To have courage and not to worry so much for He will take care of me and every single thing that happens. Yeah, then after altar call I turned back and saw my sis. Yeah I was still crying, hugged my sis, still couldnt stop crying. AND goodness me until now I still dont know why I cried. I guess it was God touching me. Well, yeah she comforted me and all. Then I told her that I wanted to talk to Sis Jessie about that thing I've been thinking the whole past week.
Ok so went up, my sis told her I wanted to talk to her when I thought she was helping me tell her the thing already lah. tsk. Anyways so I talked to her and in the end I still told her what I thought my sis already told her since she asked if I had anything to tell her while questioning me. That was when I realised my sis didnt tell her yet.tsk. haha. So she asked me some questions, got my number and said she'll call me. She's really nice haha not how she thought i thought that she was scary haha. But well I still cant help being scared. And now when I'm writing this I'm still scared. Very scared. Anyways, IM SO GLAD I finally tell her and I wont have a chance to change my mind anymore:). Well I know I can back out but Im NOT going to. I promise. If this is where God has called me to I will go and gladly serve Him. So well, after that went for dinner with family to celebrate my bro's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRO!!!:) It was great haha. We went high(the children i meant) during dinner and started talking about ahem. I shall not say it in here haha. Anyways, Im so sad today is a Sunday. Im really dreading tomorrow. sigh. I know I've already decided about it. But still can't help being scared. And not knowing how this whole week in school is going to be. Oh wells, however scared I am, I AM TOO HAPPY RIGHT NOW!:) HAHA! Oh and my new favourite word is HOPE. YES. There is always HOPE as long as you have God.YAY!Haha!Im really happy now. and really relieved too. Wow, this is a really long post sorry but alot of things happened ytd. haha. oh yeah and now for the thanking time.:) I really want to thank my sis for helping me and ting yan for encouraging me and sis em for reassuring me.:)
well, I hope tomorrow and the whole week will go on smoothly.Especially in school. Sigh I'm not going to church this week cos of 110th annivesary which means I dont have church to look forward too this week!:( never mind, I can look forward to performing for the first time if that helps haha!And God will bring me through this whole week!:)